Dumbfounded. Blown away. Shocked. Humbled.
These are just a sliver of the emotions I feel when I remember God's utter goodness and faithfulness.
This summer I am going on a summer project (missions trip) to Australia with Campus Crusade for Christ (Cru). In order to go, I need to raise $6,100. This whole process has been a lesson in and of itself. Time and time again God has shown me how good and wonderful and faithful He is. And time and time again I forget and start to freak out. There are numerous stories I can share, but I want to write about two in particular.
The first example of how big God is came early during my support raising process. When I was making a list of who to send out my letters to, I was debating about this one person. Some stuff happened between me and him in the past and I was still harboring resentment against him. However, the Holy Spirit led me to send him one anyways. Well, when I checked online to see if anyone had given yet, I was shocked by the amount he had given. Boom. God once again showed me how big He truly is.
The next Sunday I saw him in church and went up to him to thank him. During this conversation God brought confession, forgiveness, and restoration to our friendship. Boom! once again God showed me how powerful He is and that there is healing in who He is. Praise the Lord.
The second example I want to share happened just today. A week or so ago, I got an email from one of the staff members for Mason Cru. It basically said a couple who went to GMU and were involved in Cru wanted to know of there was anyone going on a summer project who still needed some support. So I sent my support letter to a couple that I've never even met.
This morning I was praying to God asking Him to provide more support money. I sent out all my letters and was still $2000 away. I was feeling really worried and thought that I wouldn't receive anymore donations. But as I got home today from a graduation party, I got a letter in the mail. It was from the couple that I had never met. As I opened it and read their letter, I was moved by their kind words. And as I looked at the check they sent me I once again was blown away by God. I couldn't believe the amount they gave to a person they didn't even know.
Throughout this support raising process I have learned a ton. How good, faithful, big, merciful, loving, constant, caring, and wonderful God is! I've also discovered how weak, unfaithful, forgetful, doubtful, worried, and unworthy I am. I constantly box God in and think there's no way this or that can happen. It's impossible. But then He once again shows me just exactly who He is.
How good is God for loving me? I don't deserve it and can't earn it. He loves me just because. It doesn't make sense. I am so incredibly blessed to serve someone as magnificent as Him. Thank you Lord!
hannah
